5/30/12 Journal

I finally have my first video for The Binge Love Purge Hate Campaign posted on Youtube and Facebook. I am still in the process of working out the film that was written by Emily Pabish, since she gave both me and Hayley permission to do it. The vision I have for the film in my head is not something Hayley wants to do, and as an artist, disagreeing with someone else on an artistic idea is something I will have to deal with. Just in case, for whatever reason, this film doesn't work out, I want to have something I wrote on my own as a backup, or something that can be a project in the future. I have never really been great at play writing or screen-writing, but it is something I want to learn more about in the future. Hopefully if we do the workshop with Crystal this summer, I will be able to learn more about technique. Something I do know is that most writers starts with Stream Of Consciousnesses. Since there is nothing I can really start tonight, that is what I will do. 

SOC:

The next big thing.. nanana I'm watching this movie, and he's singing this song and it's actually pretty good. wooooowwwwwww I hate people I hate people so much haahaahaha beeep beeep Im a bus hahahaha wow I sound like an idiot and i really dont know what to say in this thing. We havent done it in class in so long. I miss that. Ohh now someones playing an acoustic guitar. thats cool. Hector has my acoustic guitar. he is changing the strings for me and tightening one of the things on it. cause something is loose. well obviously thats stupid obviously something is loose. time to stand out... ohhhh,,.ohhhh thats the song thats playing in the movie right now. wow this fan is really loud, but its hot so its ok. why do i feel like im being so unproductive right now i feel like i wont be able to youse.. i mean use any of this in whatever i decide to right.. i mean write, this is supposed to be helping me i mean its fun but come on I need something to work with here! come on brain, say something. wait.. brains cant talk. well that was kind of clever. most clever thing i have said all day. wow im stupid. stupid stupid stupid. rags. rags is the name of the movir im watching right now. its pretty stupid, but the guy is cute.. wow im shallow. im really shallow. boop boop boop well this is useless/ 

The phrases in bold are things I think I would be able to use in whatever I decide to write

5/29/12

The finished product of  first Binge Love Purge Hate is now published on Youtube and Facebook

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-e2oPZDsrYI

Feedback would be great!

5/18/12 Journal

I have to edit the viral that I filmed last week, but I realized that I don't have a computer to edit on. So until I can get acess to one, I might as well start planning the next short film. Emily Pabish sent me an email about something she wrote that she wants to be part of the campaign. She sent Hayley and I the story, or script. When I read it, I had the idea of the video:

A girl is in a classroom, sitting at a desk, writing in her journal. Her voice will be playing as she is writing. The girl was in a verbal- abusive relationship, and because of her boyfriend's harsh words, she becomes anorexic. She is now in recovery, but her boyfriend now has a new girlfriend. The whole time she is reflecting on the experience.

Kelsey said if I gave her advanced notice, she would be happy to be in the video. If not, I was even considering having Emily do it, although I would rather not because she is the writer.

5/11/12 Journal

Today I stayed after to do my very first shoot for the Binge Love Purge Hate Campaign. My partner in the project didn't show up, so I have come to the conclusion that I want this to be an independent project. I started it alone, and I think it would be a lot easier to not have to rely on another person to get work done. My casting fell through, but I did have Imani in the film, and Becca who is a dancer. There were only 2 lines in the film, so I don't have to worry about the acting being too bad. I will have the video posted sometime during the week

5/10/12 Journal

My storyboard for tomorrow's shoot. I didn't draw it out completely, my bodies are just made up of circles. Going to the next step and drawing full out bodies is something I will have to work on. I will email them to you because it is a pdf and it won't open on blogger.

5/8/12 Journal

For the most part, I pretty much have my viral planned out for Friday's shoot. I have my own camera, so I don't have to worry too much about getting access to the class cameras. My cast is planned out, I just need confirmations from some of the cast. This is my list

Girl With Eating Disorder- Margie (Not confirmed)

Extras- Brittany, Hannah (Not confirmed), Christa (Not confirmed), Imani

My location is the girls bathroom near the auditorium. I am going to try and see if film is staying after that day. Plan B is to see how long one of my teachers is planning on staying at the school. And if all else fails, I am going to go to Biscko and see if we would have permission to be unsupervised. However,  I don't know how that will go. So I am going to keep my fingers crossed that my first two options will work. 

I have my storyboard, and I will have that scanned and posted in tomorrow's blog entry.

5/4/12 Journal

Although I wasn't in school today, it did give me more time to plan out my viral for BLPH. Today I tried finding background music for the viral. I learned from my Mainstage teaser that having instrumentals as background music is much better than having music with lyrics, because it distracts the viewer from the actual video. I narrowed it down to these songs.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GPrbwit6JOE

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2LNcOM7H6DM&ob=av2n

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=USdbsCS2DLw

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3r66LqyiRPk&feature=fvwrel

I know these are all pop songs, and most of them aren't actually good songs, but the actual music has that sad, dark sound that I was going for. Well, maybe not the third one, but it does have the sad kind of sound i'm going for.

5/3/12 Journal

For my independent artistic project, I have decided to use this to get work done for The Binge Love Purge Hate Campaign I started about getting awareness out about eating disorders. I am collaborating with Hayley on it as much as I can, but I don't want to have to rely on another person for things to get done, so I think that the change in blog assignments was a very good idea. Today, I started planning out a viral video that I hope to film in the next week or so. I know that I will be filming it in the bathroom near the auditorium, and I hope to use Emily, Brittany, Abbi, Christa, and Hannah. I already talked to Brittany and Emily and they said they could probably do it. During the video, I want the audio to have some type of music in it, but I also want quotes that would be said by a person with an eating disorder, who does not think they have a problem. I spent about an hour looking up quotes, and I found a few very good ones that I will definitely. These are the quotes:

"Your stomach isn’t growling, it’s applauding"

"A fat stomach never breeds fine thoughts"

"Sacrifice is giving up something good for something better"

"Nothing tastes as good as it feels"

"A moment on the lips, forever on the hips"

"Thin has a taste of its own"

"The hungrier you are, the fatter you burn"

"Thinner is winner"

"If it was easy, everyone would be thin" 

The fact that someone would even say these things shocks me, but I do know that is the mind set that a person can be in. Even though it will be a shocking thing to hear, it is something that needs to be exposed. You hear about stories about girls with eating disorders after they are treated, but you never hear about what goes through someones mind on their worst days. That is my goal with this project.